Things I didn't understand until I birthed a child

Run. Run. Keep going. Train insane or stay the same. Wipe the sweat, breathe in, breathe out. Run. Legs aching & I drive home in the dark, the last bit of quiet. Front door squeaks. I juggle a coffee mug & coat & laptop bag & “MOMMA!” as he comes barreling to me. THUMP in […]


Baby-wearing: Not just for hippies.

by heirtoblair on October 25, 2012

Before I was pregnant, I thought baby-wearing was only for hippies that were way too involved in their child’s life. Then I got pregnant & realized that baby carriers were THE thing to have as a) a way to bond with the kid & b) an accessory. I registered for the typical black forward-facing carrier […]


Bonding & Not Bonding & how it’s all okay.

by heirtoblair on July 25, 2012

The topic for this month is bonding with a newborn. Oof. Y’all, I’m going to be honest & say that this topic is knocking me off my feet & leaving me rather speechless because I just don’t remember. I don’t remember because I was sick & I don’t remember because I didn’t do it, but […]


Where I wonder what things are inherited & how.

by heirtoblair on June 26, 2012

I rub my feet together as I fall asleep. It’s a self-soothing thing, kind of like how some people suck their thumb or bite their nails or how Harrison used to make this noise at the bottom of his throat. It’s not a big rub & it’s not something I do against anyone else, but […]


When the floodgates open.

by heirtoblair on June 25, 2012

Tonight I sat watching videos on my phone, videos from February 2012 of my little man as we practiced saying “More, please!” & I gave him a mini-marshmellow as a reward.  It was on tape video to show to his therapist, to show how hard he worked, for me to remember how far he’d come […]