Where my heart still counts my little ones.

by heirtoblair on November 22, 2011

Lord, make me a rainbow I’ll shine down on my mother She’ll know I’m safe with You when she stands under my colors ~The Band Perry, “If I Die Young” Three years later, I remember rolling over in bed one morning in September  & I gasped & held up the pregnancy test, saying “I think […]


Willing my heart to pour.

by heirtoblair on March 14, 2011

A few weeks ago, Jeanett of Life Rearranged asked me to join in with some amazing women to talk about miscarriage & infant loss, all raising funds for Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep (NILMDTS is a non-profit that offers free photography to grieving families in the PICU/NICU).  I quickly agreed & spent several […]

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November 22nd.

by heirtoblair on November 22, 2010

Two years ago, this day broke my heart. Today, it was pieced back together. I cried a lot today.  I woke up with a selfish heaviness in my heart, a few tears for the baby I lost two years ago.  & within an hour, I hunched over my desk in desperate prayer for my best […]


Thankful on a Thursday.

by heirtoblair on June 10, 2010

It’s been kind of a crazy week. We use the word crazy around here still We began cloth diapering, which has so far turned out to be a hilarious adventure.  Doug likes it just as much as I do (that fluffy butt on Harrison is irresistible), but he did leak last night.  So tonight we tripled […]


Would I be out of line if I said, "I miss you?"

by heirtoblair on November 22, 2009

It has been one year. and even when I’m holding Harrison, I still ache for the baby I will never know. I am so thankful for Harrison. So proud of him, so thankful for his health, so in love with his blonde hair that some days, I think I will explode. But even a year […]