I’m sitting on our screened porch. It’s 70 degrees in March & warm wind ruffles my hair & the sunshine feels like it is tickling my toes.
That’s not a metaphor or poetry, simply that it has been so long since my tootsies saw UV rays that they are getting tingles of happiness.
There’s something about the world & me & my level of joy that come alive with the sun. I always thought I was a “winter girl” with my adoration of scarves & peacoats & snow & a big mug of coffee, but lately I find myself dreaming of summer. Lazy days at the pool & backyard cookouts & weaving twinkle lights through the wisteria that runs along our back fence. Our neighbors are line-drying their sheets already & I wish I could twirl between them.
Is it possible to fall over from happiness? To over-twirl & over-smile & feel so whole that I have nowhere else to go, so I simply explode?
After two years of struggling & believing lies & fighting, always fighting, I feel like life is cutting me a break. Handing me sunshine & a respite & saying, “Okay, girlfriend. You made it so enjoy.”
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I so could have written this post! I feel exactly the same way. I always thought I was a winter gal myself but lately this weather has brought out the spring gal in me. Lazy days with my boys outside playing while I sip on lemonade watching, this must be heaven I think. Enjoy it girl you absolutely deserve it!!
you said it, girlfriend. i could not agree more with every single solitary word of this post. saying “cheers!” from maine as i head out to sip wine on the back porch in 60 degrees. life? is good.
You know what’s awesome? The last several months have kicked you in the arse, what with the layoffs and the uncertainty of it all. But you? You have kept your head high, found your happy, and kicked life’s arse right back!
I like this Happy BA
She’s come a long way and I hope she stays for a long, long time!!
Reading this has just made me so happy for you and so happy in general. It makes me crave summer like popcorn at the movies, but I read it again just so I could smile a little more. Thank you for sharing how fabulous your today is. You totally changed everything in my thought process, just that quickly!
So happy for you! You deserve it all!
Reading your happy gives me the happies. The sun is out here but not that warm yet. Wednesday! Wednesday is when we’re supposed to get the 70ness (NC is usually about 5-6 degrees warmer than DC, no?). I think my toes will say hello too. And seriously, reading all that you’ve gone through the past few months and how you continue to purposely rebound…I wish I could hug you (but then I would do that whole creepy hold on too long and sniff your three day hair that probably still smells like I washed it today hair and then, well, just weird).
I’m so glad you are having some peace, calm abd happiness after some extreme up and downs! I used to love winter but over the last few years, summer has become a favorite time.
See? THIS is how people write about being happy! Two thumbs up, BA!
I know exactly what you’re saying. YOU are …lickable.
No? Too creepy? Oh well… I enjoy you, BA.
I always say pretty weather is a natural mood enhancer and that 72 degrees will turn any day around. 70 degrees in March… enjoy every. single. second. Sounds awesome!!
I think you can be both a “winter girl” and a “summer girl”. There’s a little something to enjoy in every season. And when you’re happy (which HOORAY for being happy!!) it’s easy to see the best parts of the season. Like the first warm day on the spring and when the first flowers start to sprout out of the ground. And the birds chirping when your alarm goes off in the morning. And being able to open the sunroof when you’re driving down the highway. Clearly, right now I’m a “spring girl”.
this post made me so happy for you! you deserve more of these days, & i’m sure just experiencing one after so long affirms that yes, they are in reach, & yes, you can reach them! yay!
Amen.
let it happen 
The sun works it’s magic on our souls. True story. If this winter was as bleak as last year, man I don’t know where I’d be right now…probably in a tanning salon no doubt soaking in fake rays.
I’m glad that things are starting to sway in your direction, and I it tips you over with happiness don’t push it back
Hugs
So happy for you. And so jealous. Tomorrow’s forecast is rain/snow mix and a high of 39. Balls!
There is something truly magical about the weather getting nicer. No matter how bad things are it always cheers me up.
Your writing BA does an superb job at expressing a joy in your soul that is beautiful. As a reader I’ve felt your sadness and angst at times, so reading about your joy is also akin to feeling it too. Thank you for sharing all of it: the bad times and the good times. While also serving as little reminder to everyone that Life is Good.
Love that last line!